Waiting for My Beloved

As promised, here's the story about my wait for my Beloved:

I guess I should back up to BEFORE the promise, the little known part of the story that is often forgotten. When I was 14 years old, I was living in Gilchrist, TX (on the Bolivar Peninsula between Galveston and Beaumont). I attended church on the "mainland" in a town called Winnie. I had amazing youth pastors, Steve and Cheri. Cheri shared with us girls about how she had a list of things she wanted in her future husband. She kept the list in her Bible and God answered everything on the list when he gave her Steve. I decided to write a list as well.

Fast forward 3 years. I was living in Konawa, OK. The summer before my senior year of high school, I was spending the summer on campus at ECU for Upward Bound. I spent a LOT of time asking God about my future husband. He was gracious enough to speak to me on the matter. June 24, 2002, God made me a promise that I'll never forget. He said, "I'm giving you a "David" character." I began studying the character of David in the Bible, and I absolutely fell in love. The name David means, "Beloved." That night, I wrote my first Beloved Letter. I didn't know I would have to wait so long for what God promised me. I figured in a matter of a couple of years, I would have him in my life.

It has now been 10 years. It has been a very difficult journey of crying, begging, pleading with God for my Beloved. I have believed with everything in me; I have given up; I have grown numb; and I've been beyond excited. As it is now, I have all but given up. I'm rather numb and don't really get excited about it anymore. I've pretty well lost faith that it will happen any time soon. I still write my Beloved letters. I now have 4 volumes of collections of letters. I can't even count how many letters there actually are. Well over 100, for sure.

A little side note that I forgot to mention: In 2007, mom and I (at separate times) had visions of my Beloved. I know generally what he looks like and I know his character. It drives me insane when I see someone that looks a bit like him and even has some of his traits. It's quite the temptation, but it REALLY sucks when they're not interested. I don't know how many times a day I ask, "God please. When?!"

So yeah... that's the short story. :)