Fairy Tales

I don't really remember getting into fairy tales as a child. I'm sure I must've read them, but I don't really remember much about it. I do remember, however, believing I was a Princess Queen (which my parents, to this day, won't let me live down.) A Princess Queen? Well, here was my 7-year-old logic on that one: obviously, mom was Queen. I had a baby doll named Rebecca, who was obviously my daughter, and a princess. So the only logical title for the one in between the Queen and the Princess was PRINCESS QUEEN. Ha.

Anyway, back to my train of thought. I don't really know when it happened, but within the past few years I have really become attached to fairy tales. This is going to sound crazy, but they feel more real to me than reality. Something about them draws my heart. Something grips my heart and screams, "YES! You're onto something here!" My favorite TV Show is Once Upon a Time, which is brilliantly written, I must say. Something about it captivates me.

I have always known that my mind is "different," in a manner of speaking. I have even been called "eccentric." I have always known that I don't think like other people do. I seem to live in my own little world where strange things are normal. So I figured my obsession with fairy tales must be one of my oddities. I've written a lot from the viewpoint of fairy tales. I feel connected to them in a very abnormal way. I never really knew why... until now.

I am currently reading Waking the Dead by John Eldredge. I connect with this author in a profound way. He gets right to the heart of a matter. In this instance, he truly gets to the HEART of the matter: the centrality and importance of the heart. I picked this book up at a yard sale a few weeks ago, simply because I love this author. Wild At Heart, Captivating, and The Sacred Romance were all amazing books. I picked this book up, not realizing the significance of this particular book in my life. It's been on my shelf for about 3 or 4 weeks. Here lately, I have noticed a hardness of heart. I am weary and apathetic when it comes to my relationship with God and others. I feel like giving up on God most days. I feel abandoned. I feel distant. I feel hopeless.

Last night I happened to notice the title of the book from my bed, up on the top shelf of my closet. Waking the Dead. Hmmmm, I'm feeling pretty dead right now. Maybe this will hold some answers for me. I picked it up and began to read. It's talking about how we are in a war for our hearts and how it's like a spell has been cast and put us in a deep slumber. It resonates deep within my heart. "YES, this is it!" So this is why fairy tales have resonated so deeply within me. There IS truth to them. There IS a world beyond what we see. There ARE dark forces at work to steal our happily ever after. And there IS a Prince who has come to save the day.

Suddenly it's all making so much sense.