Lonely Road

Back in about 2001 or early 2002, I was still attending the last church I called "home". There was a prophet from Colorado that came and prophesied over individuals in the church. I remember all through worship crying out to Yahweh to speak to me. He heard my cry and I was the first person the prophet spoke over. He prophesied that I would be talented at 10 or more things, and that I had a trickster spirit about me. And that God would use that, and it's only because I was motivated by a spirit of fun that He allowed me to get away with being so serious at such a young age. The prophet went on to say that I walked a lonely road, but that it would be lonelier the further down the path i walked; and that people would stand amazed that God could so own any human being.


Nearly 10 years later, I am blossoming into my talents. I have found artistic talents that I never knew I had. And I have walked a VERY lonely road. When I heard the prophecy, I was welcoming the lonely road because I didn't comprehend that it could become any lonelier than it already was. But I also had no idea where that road would lead me. I didn't foresee it changing, leading me out of the church. 


But here I am. One of my complaints this past few years has been that I sometimes wish my eyes had never been opened. I sometimes wish that I was still blinded so that I could still be okay with being inside the walls of the church with other people. But God had a much higher plan for me. I have complained to Him and others about how lonely this path is. I feel so isolated from everyone. I don't feel like anyone truly understands me. Often, when other "christians" find out what I believe, I'm shunned. Like I've said before, i'm stuck between two worlds, neither of which do I fit. I have been searching and searching for others like me for a very long time. Being a single 27 year old woman, it does weigh heavily on my mind.


I've only recently realized I had to trust Yahweh to bring people into my life. He made me a promise of my Beloved about 10 years ago or so. So I have to trust Him to fulfill that promise. In my mind, it's impossible. I know, I know: Nothing is impossible with Him; His Word will go forth and accomplish what He set it to do and it will not return to Him void. I know all this. And I'm trying very hard to believe in and trust in that. But from the human perspective, it's difficult. You look around you and there aren't others who believe like you do anywhere within driving proximity; and you wonder how you could possibly meet anyone. Anyone out there know what I'm talking about? There are two main places that people go to meet someone: church and the bar. I don't have any interest in either one, nor those who frequent those places. So how could I possibly meet anyone?


But this one thing I'm comforted in... He made me a promise and He will fulfill it. I know it to be true. He has told me multiple times to stop looking and He would bring my Beloved to me. It has been a long, lonely road. But I'm starting to see people popping up in my life whom I would've never imagined would agree with the way I believe. I now have 3 friends who understand how I believe, as of yesterday. It amazes me when someone else pops up, seemingly out of nowhere. So that gives me hope. If Yahweh can cause people that were already in my life to surface as like-minded, or at least understanding, Believers, then He can bring a like-minded man into my life without my searching. I was very comforted by this quote yesterday, which I will close with:  "One principle to consider—the longer and harder it is to enter into the fulfillment of your promises, the more significant they probably are. - Rick Joyner"


Sincerely,


A Former Slave to Religion