Frustrated

You know, the one thing I miss about the institution of religion is how they have denominations.... you know exactly what a group of people believe based on their label. I say I miss that because this journey is so much more complicated than that. It's like a mixed bag for me. I'm trying to learn more and about the time I find something I agree with... I find out there are other things that are purported by the people I agree with in one area but disagree with in another.

Example: I don't believe in celebrating christmas and easter. They are pagan holidays and I don't believe in celebrating them. When I find others who believe what I believe about those holidays... they are more legalistic in other areas and I disagree. I am not a legalistic person and I've really been wrestling with things lately. I'm frustrated with those who say the Law is still in effect... I was wrestling with this and just last night looked it up for myself. How can they say the law is still in effect when the new testament (Romans, I believe) says the law is obsolete. So I may agree with a group of people who don't celebrate Christmas and I get so excited when i find a group of ppl who agree with my beliefs... but then in other areas they're way off from what I believe and vice versa. It's just frustrating.

I have so much to learn on this journey and I'm trying to stay on the right path and not get caught up in doctrine. I'm sick of doctrine. I just want the Truth. I did come across some pages today that I think may offer just that; nothing more, nothing less. So that's encouraging. But I'm still frustrated. I'm frustrated because this group of believers, thousands strong, are so elusive. Maybe they don't mean to be. And it's very difficult to put a label on us, which makes it difficult to find others like us. And because we're all on different segments of this journey, that complicates things further. *Sigh* I really wish it was easier to find TRULY like-minded believers. I wish it was as easy as it is in the institution of church. :/ I've gotta find some balance!